You're all asinine

This is a post that may offend some readers. I sincerely hope it does. I apologize for my cynicism and nothing more.

I has become increasingly evident that some people think it's a big deal that I like Jordan Harvey. My question to you, if it applies, is: what the hell does it matter to you? Honestly. How does my attraction to Jordan have any affect on you or your life in such a way that you would make it into as big a deal as it seems that many of you are.

The following is a quote taken from my first post written on this blog.

"I feel like those people younger then me put me in a box. A box that is only as big as their own understanding and personal experiences. They don't understand that I don't fit into their box. It's frustrating."

I find that statement true to this day. Is it so hard to grasp the idea of two people of opposite gender, in spite of any attraction there my be, to actively pursue a meaningful friendship without any intentions of anything more than that? It seems apparent that such a concept is outside of many peoples "boxes." The term "thinking outside the box" comes to mind. Maybe you should try it.


"Its just like everyone thinks that you're being an obsessive freak who thinks he has a chance and is trying real hard and that I'm excessively annoyed with you for it...neither parts are true." -Jordan

There you have it folks!


This paragraph is for everyone who thought "He's so obvious, it's pathetic." I never tried to hide anything, so no wonder it was obvious. I never felt ashamed, and therefore never felt the need to hide anything.

Pineapples apon pineapples!

Yeah, the title says it all. There's exactly one thing I want to say. But in the interest of public censorship I find it just too uncomfortable for my readers to deal with.

Today's lucky numbers are: 87, 11, 56, 145, 12, 94, 35, 65, 91, 3, 46.

I would like reiterate. (excerpt from a past post)

"...I feel almost completely discouraged as well. I feel like my efforts with a certain person are sometimes joyfully welcomed, while later they my seem indifferent towards me. So, yeah, pray that my efforts may be fruitful and that I wouldn't become discouraged."


The original post.

My current thoughts (part 3)

I want you to be happy.
But then again, my opinion is biased.

So, where is everyone?

I've been trying to be more personal with my core group of friends. I want to know them on a deeper level. I've been mostly succeeding at this. I want to spend more time with them as well as talking directly to them (phone, in person, emails, etc). Not only talking, but actually having a good meaningful conversation. Like I said, this is my goal for my core group of friends, but I have another goal within that goal. That second goal is to go even deeper than that with only a few people (2 or 3) from my group of friends. This is, in theory, the core of my core group. Russ is one of those 2 or 3 people and thanks to us both being youth staff now, we're spending a lot of time together, which is awesome and uplifting. Now, on the other hand, I feel almost completely discouraged as well. I feel like my efforts with a certain person are sometimes joyfully welcomed, while later they my seem indifferent towards me. So, yeah, pray that my efforts may be fruitful and that I wouldn't become discouraged. I also want to start "digging deeper" (as Jeremy would say) with Jared too. So, the same goes for that. Prayer that I'd have the time and opportunities I need to do that would be appreciated.

My current thoughts (part 2)

Sometimes the way you talk makes me wonder.

My current thoughts...

You really are naive.

I am a creepy old man

I called Jordan Harvey Just a minute ago. She didn't know it was me. My voice is really screwed up because of practice, and apparently I sound kind of creepy. She hung up on me.

Big secret

So, I've been keeping something from everyone I know. Only one other person knows. This is something big. Something that most people would find very surprising. Maybe even a kind of shocking. It's killing me. It's so hard to keep this to myself. I have to tell someone.

Anyone.


I'm pregnant.