I feel it crawling

I'm not in bed.
I fully intended to be in bed by 10:30 tonight. But It's not 10:30 now is it.

So, what's up. I don't know. Why am I not in bed? I have this feeling, or mood...or whatever you would prefer to call it. I occasionally get this feeling. Most often late at night. I feel like I know what it is, why it is, where it comes from. But at the same time I feel like it's strange and different and I don't know it.

lies.
all lies.
I hear.
all you want me to hear.