I'm an empty nester.

This weekend is a Pine Valley Christmas staff retreat. I had intended to go, but I decided not to. There are two main reasons why. Our youth Christmas shopping trip is Saturday, and I can't miss band practice Sunday.

Here, let me explain myself.

The shopping trip might seem like a stupid, and possibly selfish reason to skip the retreat. I see it as making myself available. Jeremy can't run all the stuff we do on his own and as a youth staff I am making myself available. Also, (especially during this busy season) it's hard to see people and spend time together. The reality is I'm going to be leaving in January and this is an awesome opportunity to be with the people I love for a whole day.

As for band practice it's as simple as this: I would be letting everyone down by missing it. We're recording in a few weeks. We've been working on writing new music and dialing in on our sound. We're at a point where we need to refocus and define what direction we will take. I've let them down enough by not being assertive...by not stepping up to the leadership role I am in.



In other news, I think that I may be done with school TOMORROW. I have half of a unit quiz and then a final to take tomorrow and that's all of it. There's nothing more. This is exciting.

I like fishy crackers

I really hate getting colds. I've had one for the last 12 days. Whenever I get a cold it always lasts for a long time. I think this one is almost gone, but it seems like it is taking a while for it to really go away.

In other news. We're supposed to be recording later this month. I believe the dates are the 28th, 29th, and the 1st.

Nate talked to me today after practice. It seems he's feeling unmotivated. I also share the same feeling. It feels like we're not accomplishing much if anything. There are some things as a band that we need to do, and there are some things that I need to do as a leader. Things that have been put off or ignored for too long. I can't speak for the other guys, but I know it's hard when you want to play shows and you can play shows, but no one is offering us anything. We've had people promise to consider us for shows and put on shows without a word to us. We've had a show canceled because the idiots putting it on didn't have their crap together. We've contacted people about adding us to one of the shows they're putting on and have gotten no response, not even a "We aren't interested." This is frustrating for me, as I'm sure it probably is for the others.

Anyway, on a lighter note. We've re-written part of our song The Spare Room. It makes it a lot better. Although, we still have work to do on that. We are also writing a new song. This song was the new song that we were writing a while a go, but we started over and we're taking it in a different (better) direction.

So, please, please, be praying for us as a band, as well as all of us individually. Thanks.

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I tried to say hello, but you had already said goodbye

So, tonight I hung out with Russ. Played some Halo 3 and hung out. I really needed it. I don't mean that in the sense that I was bored and wanted something to do. I really needed it. I should try to hang out with him more in December.

Anyway. I have a cold still. Fun.

The 2007 Westminster Turkey Bowl is tomorrow. I don't like football that much, but I was looking forward to playing. But not now, with this cold. I'm still going to do the video with Dustin though.

I've been playing a lot of acoustic guitar lately. I'm liking that a lot. Writing stuff.



I've been feeling so negative lately, or I should say for the past several weeks. Ugh.... Bitter. Angry. Easily annoyed. Frustrated. Distrusting. I feel that social inbreeding is where a lot of the blame should be put. I'm sensing that trying harder is useless. Just look at the fiasco that was my last attempt to cultivate a deep meaningful friendship. This is a good example (although not the only) of why I feel so bitter and distrusting. I invested time, effort, and my heart. Speaking of this thing called a heart, I shared mine. I wanted to be absolutely genuine because that's what I wanted in return. (Maybe that's too idealistic.) Now, because of one jealous boyfriend, that friendship is semi-nonexistent. With such a bitter taste lingering in my mouth, I question why I shared so much of my heart and why I should do it again. I really can't portray how much that breaks my heart! This is not the person I was, nor the person I want to be. But I feel so worn.

I am such a passionate person. My biggest passion by far is people. Feeling so bitter, distrusting and angry is such a foreign thing for me. With all that is in me I hate it.

Yummy

So, it's been a while. I suppose that's because I've had nothing important to say.

We finally got some recordings. Check them out HERE!
They're not the best quality, but they're good.

I think I'm getting a cold. Ugh. I hate it.

Next weekend is the Turkey Bowl! I might not play though, because of my sickness. Although Dustin and I will be doing the video of the week there. We're going to do a weird sports announcer spoof type thing. I hope it works out.

This bites

I thought I'd go to bed early tonight. At 10:30 I was happy because I didn't have anything to do and wanted to be in bed before 11. This did not happen. It's 11:40 now. I spent about the last hour online trying to get my band "out there" because we can't get any shows booked. Ugh. I have opinions about this that I will express tomorrow, if I get the time.

Good night.

"Aww...that could be anyone's pig crap silo."

So, last night I went to Dustin's house and watched Saw with him and Jared. Neither of them has seen it before, so that made watching it with them very interesting. They both really liked it. We're going to watch Saw II sometime soon. And when I get Saw III I'm sure we'll watch that too.

Anyway. Mia (my sister) and Maura (her daughter) have been here since last Friday night. It's pretty fun having a baby around. She was scared of me for a while. But that's because she hardly ever sees me. But yesterday she warmed up to me. Who knows, maybe by the end of the week she'll let me hold her. Heh.

At church on Sunday there was a meeting to form a committee to find a new pastor. There were only nine spots to fill and 25 people were nominated. If there was a tie for 9th place we had a few ideas on how they could settle who got the spot.

1. Blindfold knife fight
2. Dance off
3. Rap battle
4. Thumb wrestling
5. Jousting

Yeah, there wasn't a tie...darn.

EDIT: If anyone is wondering, the title is a quote from The Simpsons movie.

How sad...

Earlier today I stumbled across a "Christian" message board. Gosh, it's been a long time (maybe 4 years) since I was into the message board thing. Well, anyway, the lack of basic knowledge and understanding saddened me. People don't even grasp God's sovereignty. One individual even said that you can't trust that scripture is completely true. Their reasoning was that human hands wrote it, therefore it has human flaws. Two things came to my mind.

First, it is foolish to assume that men can thwart God or his plans. To assume that denies the sovereignty of God. If I or any other man could "pull a fast one" on God, then I think we had better find a new god.

Second, if this person (and the many others who agreed on his views) believes that scripture isn't infallible how can they continue to believe something they admit they don't completely trust? Seriously, if you take away the credibility of scripture then all of Christianity's credibility goes with it as well.

Here we go

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